i realize ever since i started it
i dint not have the passion to go far.
and until now i regret not having the passion
and having to face such humiliation
putting a fake brave front
but aint really.
but i choose not to stand down.
i choose for my life
i choose for my own.
i shall choose what i want.
if it does not work this way
it will work the other way.

i thought alot about it when going home.
i realize it.
but what benefits i hold now
might not be still there lateer on.

still pondering?
wondering?
hmmm